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2009 Stand Off

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 12:02:58 GMT

2009 Stand Off
Originally uploaded by mikana_shadow

The 2nd introduction since the big fight - this is 2 weeks after the loss of Jasper's brother.

I Want This Guy

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 17:00:41 GMT

Im the guy who will text you every single morning and tell you good morning and every single night to tell you sweet dreams. Im the guy who will hold you when you're crying and wipe away your tears. Im the guy who still thinks you're beautiful with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt. Im the guy who won't pressure you to do things you dont want to. Im the guy who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well.

Im the guy who kisses you on the forehead. I'm the guy who'll randomly tickle you just to hear you giggle. Im the guy who doesnt kiss and tell. Im the guy who actually listens to you when you talk. Im the guy who's excited all day because im looking forward to our date that night. Im the guy who is content to just be able to hold you and wants nothing more.

I'm the guy who can't help but smile when you walk into the room. I'm the guy who'll say i love you first because i'm not afraid to say it. Im the guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling. Im the guy who won't lie to you about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with. Im the guy who gets butterflies when he hears your name.

I'm the guy who's not afraid to tell his friends he loves you. Im the guy who doesnt mess with other girls when i have you. Im the guy who doesn't care about your imperfections and loves you more for them. I'm the guy who will hold you while we watch the sunset. I'M THE GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE YOU THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.

I AM THIS GUY.... one of many.... who always ends up losing her to the jerks who'll treat her like crap and are "too good of a friend" to date. Girls if this is sweet repost this with the title "I want this guy" Guys if this is you repost this with the title "I'm this guy

My Fines are $425.60

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 17:41:52 GMT

"My Fine Is: "

This is fun to do. Just read the "offense" and if you've done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you've read each "offense" and added up your total fine. When you are done, post it in your notes. Change the header to "My fine is $........" You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

1.Smoked pot -- $10
2.Did acid -- $5
3.Ever had sex at church -- $25
4.Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
5.Had sex with someone on Facebook -- $25
6.Had sex for money -- $100
7.Ever had sex with the a Puerto Rican -- $20
8.Vandalized something -- $20
9.Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
10.Beat up someone -- $20
11.Been jumped -- $10
12.Crossed dressed -- $10
13.Given money to stripper -- $25
14,Been in love with a stripper -- $20
15.Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- $0.10
16.Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
17.Ever drive drunk -- $20
18.Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
19.Used toys while having sex -- $30
20.Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
21.Went skinny dipping -- $5
22.Had sex in a pool -- $20
23.Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
24.Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
25.Cheated on your significant other -- $10+
26.Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend-- $20
27.Masturbated -- $10
28.Done oral -- $5
29.Got oral -- $5
30.Done / got oral in a car while it was moving -- $25
31.Stole something -- $10
32.Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
33.Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
34.Made a nasty home video -- $15
35.Had a threesome -- $50
36.Had sex in the wild -- $20
37.Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
38.Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
39.Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
40.Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
41.Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
42.Went streaking -- $5
43.Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
44.Been arrested -- $5
45.Spent time in jail -- $15
46.Peed in the pool -- $0.50
47.Played spin the bottle -- $5
48.Done something you regret --$20
49.Had sex with your best friend -- $20
50.Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
51.Had anal sex -- $80
52.Lied to your mate -- $5
53.Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25

Tally it up and Title it..."My Fine Is: $..... " Then post

quiet night with no JJ

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 23:04:12 GMT

"If today was perfect there would be no need for tomorrow."

So my son went back to his dad's yesterday afternoon...his dad decided he could take him after all...only 2 days late. Never mind having him the extra couple days - but JJ loves his nan so dearly, he doesnt like to leave her side, so naturally he wears her out, her patience gets thin. Must admit mine has been of late as well, I think the sleepless nights are catching up with me.

I actually sent my resume out for a couple local positions yesterday! Oddly enough Im both scared and excited about returning to the work force. Miss the money definitely, but also the lack of time to spend it - some how when you've got less time to do things, you get more done. Quality time I guess...maybe its just the way I work :)

Im so lucky sometimes - I dont even realise it. Even when things seem really down, and no way out - something happens to snap me back out of it. Found a couple new communities thanks to a new friend here on LJ, and they actually seem busy too, unlike some communities where no one posts to anymore. Wish they had a browsing section though, rather than having to look by a word typed into the search engine. Its like you are limited by your imagination. So I guess it has both its good and bad points.

So its 9am on saturday, and I still havnt slept. Going to get more serious about losing weight again - I cant believe i put on everything I lost last year, knew my ex was bad for me - and my hips it seems. Going to stop being so mean to myself, give myself a break (mentally speaking) and maybe then I wont be so mean to myself, or to the ones I love, theres so few of them after all.

So Life goes on...

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 11:08:34 GMT

I have spread my dreams beneath your feet. Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
W.B. Yeats

So my world get turned upside down, and yet life proceeds with or without me. Im dumped beneath the waves, and not sure which was is up, but thats when you are suppose to stop and be still, and you will start to rise up naturally, then you know which direction to swim. Atleast this is what Im telling myself, I need time to recooperate, learn to trust myself again before I try to trust anyone else. Ive found out things since he left, and it seems I never really knew him at all. I still dont understand how he could be with someone else and then come back to me as though nothing had happened at all. I have spoken to one of his many, and now I dont know if he was ever true to me. I had wanted him to go, had asked him more than once to leave, but to be betrayed like this actually hurts.

Im not sure how to rebuild my life, but I need to do something, and I dont believe jumping back in the waters of dating are the way to go. Ive had offers come out of the woodwork, which surprised me. But I dont believe any of them are true, just after sex, and Ive had enough of that, I want someone who wont just fight with me, but will fight for me. Who'll be beside me through thick and thin. I want someone I can believe in...but perhaps I need to believe in myself first, be the person I want to be.

He Walked Out

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 09:26:52 GMT

So my live-in partner went to the shops a few days back - and just never came back! At first i didnt really believe I could be that lucky (we didnt get on well) but now Im scared he'll actually return. I started to go through his things tho, he left clothes and paper work behind, and have found out he lied to me more than once, and ALL his things are in hock, including his mobile phone which is on a 2 year contract. Been told now he went to adelaide.

Been getting calls last couple days and found out he's hugely in debt, but I dont see how running away will help, it'll still effect his credit rating. How can GROWN men think they can just run away from their problems. He never gave any clue that he was thinking bout leaving - in fact I'ld asked him to go before and he refused point blank. I believe Im better off alone for awhile, get back on my feet, learn to trust myself first. Concertrate on raising my son, on leading a good life and just remembering who I actually am. I dont believe I could trust a man right now, not after everything else I've been through. I deserve a break.

Problems are like pebbles

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:32:36 GMT

A small problem is like a pebble. Hold it too close to your eye and it fills the whole world and puts everything out of focus.

Hold it at a proper distance and it can be examined and properly classified.

Throw it at your feet and it can be seen in its true setting, just one more tiny bump on the pathway of life.

The next time a problem arises, use your imagination to cast it to the ground as quickly as you can. Then you need only step lightly over it and get on with the business of enjoying life.

May you always remember that problems, no matter how big they might seem, are really no larger than your perspective insists they be.

Be the light...give out of love.

HAVE A BLESSED DAY!

Top 20 Authors

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 14:17:37 GMT

The Top 20 Favourite Authors have been announced after a costa coffee survey (I think they have coffee shops in some bookshops) and I want you to bold the authors whose work you have read (Not a few lines but properly and not authors whose work has been made into a film you've seen either. You HAVE TO HAVE READ their stuff) and put a line through the ones you haven't heard of.

1. Enid Blyton
2. Roald Dahl
3. JK Rowling
4. Jane Austen
5. William Shakespeare
6. Charles Dickens
7. JRR Tolkien
8 . Agatha Christie
9. Stephen King
10. Beatrix Potter
11. CS Lewis
12. Catherine Cookson
~~13. Martina Cole~~
~~14. Bill Bryson~~
15. Charlotte Bronte
~~16. Jacqueline Wilson~~
17. Oscar Wilde
~~18. Maeve Binchy~~
19. Dan Brown
20. Emily Bronte

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 12:56:56 GMT

It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, "Always do what you are afraid to do."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

This quote is good advice, theres so much in life I have missed out on because I let fear rule me, and now I regret it. I wonder what I could have accomplished if I had more confidence in myself, who'd I'ld really be. But then, my current life isnt real bad, im sure there are some people out there who'd actually be jealous. Sad, lonely people, but all the same I have alot to be grateful for too. My son is the main thing, he gives me a reason to be a good person, to strive for more.

I've decided I need to do something more with my life though, I need some reason to be proud of myself. A course or a job, something to be part of the world again.

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:14:23 GMT

My pain is hidden from the world, alone I sit and cry...strangers see someone strong and smart, they do not see the real me. Inside I cry and die, inside I hide. Why do some people have such deep depression? Why do others fly by with no scratches on their wings?

Writer's Block: The Best Invention

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 03:51:51 GMT

What would you consider to be the single greatest invention in the history of the world? Why?

Submitted By brianmorris

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The computer - it allows you to get your work down quick, to communicate with people from all over the world, express your opinions and play games to relieve stress. And now it can all fit onto your lap...

Questionaire thing

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 08:21:59 GMT

1. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Yes
2. What did you dream last night? That i was somewhere else, actually having a good time.
3. Who are the friends you can count on the most? None
4. Where was your first kiss with your current or last significant other? In a cheesy sydney hotel.
5. Last time you kissed someone and who? Today, my georgous son.
6. What is something you've learned about yourself recently? That I have more strength than I believed.
7. Do you like anyone? Yes.
8. Do you know anyone who is engaged? Not currently.
9. What's your favorite number? 7
10. Who was the last person to make you cry? My boyfriend.
11. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Yes, several times.
12. When was the last time you cried? Last week.
13. What is one thing you miss about your past? Innocence, feeling happy, having real friends.
14. What is one thing you've learned about life?   That death and taxes are unavoidable.
15. Are you jealous of anyone? Yes
16. Is anyone jealous of you? Only if they dont really know me.
17. Has a friend ever used you? Yes, too often.
18. Has anyone recently told you that they like you more than as a friend? Yes.
19. Who was the last person you drove with?  Mykal.
20. What are you looking forward to? Seeing what kind of man my boy grows into being.
21. How are you today? Ive been better...
23. Are you currently single? No
24. How many things in your past do you regret? Too many things, but mainly the ones I DIDNT take a chance on...
25. Do you have a best friend? No
26. Have you ever kissed two people in one night? Yes
27. Who was the last person you hugged? My son.
28. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them? Yes
29. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change? My belief in myself.
30. Have you ever felt like killing somebody? Yes
31. Do you like your life? No
32. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back? It's what people do
33. Did you forgive them? Only if i forgave myself for giving them the chance to.
34. Who is your best friend? Charlie.
35. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? Boys.
36. When do you see yourself having kids? Yes
37. Has anyone ever cheated on you? Yes
40. What is some of your biggest fears of your life? Growing old alone, outliving my son
41. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes
42. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? Yes
43. Are you a player? No
45. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right? Yes.
46. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you have dated?   17 years
47. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker? No

Writer's Block: God For a Day

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 17:00:40 GMT

If you could be God for a day, what three things would be at the top of your to-do list?

Submitted By elven_ranger

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I believe their is more to this question than meets the eye, did you notice how many people would "kill" or "smite" someone? Why would you waste the power you had to hurt someone, as opposed to making someone's life better, even if it was just your own. Why not make some good out of life, instead of something bad? Yet how many of those people dont even believe in god in the first place?

1) Rid the world of disease, so that maybe people would live long enough to enjoy the life they were giving.
2) Make the things that are actually good for us taste delicious and be non-fattening. (fat free chocolate, who wouldnt want that?)
3) Make it so no parent would ever have to outlive their child.

Out of those answers that I read, I found the below to be my favourite -
I would give everyone empathy so they could see the effect they have on others.
Make Education (at all levels) Free, Everywhere
I would make vegetables taste like chocolate so my kids would eat them.

Books - Top 100

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 16:00:27 GMT

Book List Thing

The Big Read reckons that "the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who haven't read 6 and force books upon them ;-)

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte - Just finished - Loced it !!
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible - The book of Esther and Revelation
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare - Some of them... Ditto (Becks)
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo